Even when my heart's not in it, His is. When I feel wretched and sinful He sees me as clean and shining. When I am reluctant and dispassionate He is encouraging and exciting. When I'm just plain tired He sits and comforts me. When I am discouraged and despondent He speaks life into me.
This last week every senior at my school graduated. They presented and defended their Senior Theses, they attended their Baccalaureate, and then they graduated. And at every stage of graduation week (or week and a half) people were looking at my class and saying, "That will be you guys next year."
I'm not ready to be a senior. I'm not ready to have my last year with these classmates and teachers that I've been with since I was seven. I'm not ready to choose a college. I'm not ready to move away. I'm not ready to choose a major. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up! This is what I've been bringing to Jesus lately. I've been asking how such a dramatic, abrupt change as moving away and being on your own after 18 years of being a kid can be His plan for anyone. So Jesus looks at me and tells me He is the only Constant I will ever have. I believe it is His plan for me to move away and go to college and as full of change that lovely plan is I know that He will never change. He will always be right there with me. Next year when I am having my last Christmas program with my class and teachers, last devotions, last birthday party, last test, last project, last picnic I will look to Him and know that He and I will never have a last. He is Omnipresent, Constant, and Sovereign and He will always take care of me. And because I know these things about Jesus to be true I can relish all those "lasts" next year and not regret them. I can celebrate them more than I mourn them. I can laugh more than I cry. I can embrace them because I know that I am safe in God's plan.
"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17
"They will perish, but You remain; they will all wear out like a garment. Like clothing You will change them and they will be discarded. But You remain the same, and Your years will never end." Psalm 102: 26-27
