Faithful

Faithful was my chosen word for 2013. At first when I began thinking over this year I couldn't pinpoint specific moments that really embodied that word. But I'm slowly becoming aware of how incredibly faithful Jesus really was to me this year. 2013 was such a whirlwind - falling in love with Beatrice and her four children, discovering the world of refugees in my very own Boise, senior year of high school to freshman year of college, my life in Boise to a brand spanking new life in Spokane.  A lot of change happened this year, more change than in any other year of my life.  And I don't think I quite understood last December 31 how desperately I would need God's faithfulness.

All the change equaled a lot of hard days, emotions, decisions but in the struggle I have found Christ more.  And though I've had fewer mornings to do Bible studies, less energy to memorize Scripture, and no time to listen to my favorite Christian music I have found a closeness to Him that I hadn't known before.  He is faithful.

I don't actually expect 2014 to be any less whirlwind or full of change.  I have been praying so much these last five months about God's plans for my major, my career, the rest of my life and I'm both excited and scared to see where His answers will take me.  So for my 2014 word I've chosen...trust.  I want to learn to trust Him more.  I'm the kind of person who likes to prove to myself that I can do things without anyone else's help.  But if 2013 has taught me anything, it's that there are a lot of things I really, really can't do on my own.  I don't trust Him like I want to. And I hope 2014 will change that.

"Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD Himself, is my strength and my defense; He has become my salvation." Isaiah 12:2