He Is My Defender

Towards the end of April I began to get very scared about my Junior Thesis Defense that I knew was approaching. Panic and anxiety would sneak up on me until I completely dreaded the thought of it.  I didn't know how in the world I would be able to do it. So, in the first week of May I asked Jesus for a miracle.  I told Him, "I know what I'm about to ask for is a miracle but I believe You can do it so...please do it." I asked that He would miraculously take all fear, anxiety, and panic away from me and that He would not let Satan make me nervous about my Defense. Not then, not any day leading up to it, and not the day of my Defense.
It worked.  I have not felt fearful or panicky about my Defense since I asked for that miracle.  Amen and amen. Even these last two days as I've watched my classmates and the seniors give their Defenses I have not gotten scared.  If anything, watching them has been very encouraging because they have all done very well.  But the anticipation has been growing. I am giving my Defense tomorrow afternoon.  I am very last.  I didn't mind very much a couple days ago, but after two days of watching everyone else finish their Thesis journey for the year I would really like to finish mine too :)  When I think about finishing it tomorrow I don't feel panic like I did in April, but a few nerves are popping up here and there. But I am so grateful that's all there has been and I believe that's all there will be.
But can you see how understanding Jesus has been through all of this? He saw my fear and He saw how miserable I was so He did a miracle for me.  Soon after I prayed that prayer I saw this verse while flipping through my Bible.


"God, my strength, I am looking to you, because God is my defender." Psalm 59:9


And later I looked up this one too."For their Defender is strong; He will take up their case against you." Proverbs 23:11


He is my Defender, He is the Ultimate Defender so I ask that tomorrow He will help me defend my thesis.
~Rebecca